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PDW

Personal Defense Writing. Essays and reflections at the intersection of readiness, mutual aid, and the inner life of self-defense. Not just gear. Not just theory. This is the everyday practice of showing up prepared—in body, mind, and friendship.

The Ghost Story in the Glass Case

On Two Used Staccatos and the Cost of Clarity Walking into a gun shop and spotting two used Staccato 2011 pistols, optics mounted, tagged at $3,500 each, is enough to make anyone pause. The fact that both came from the same seller? That's not just inventory—it&

The $3,700 Pistol and the Life You Could Build Instead

I recently saw a 2011-style pistol priced at $3,700. Beautiful. Balanced. Optic-ready. Also: the cost of a reliable used car. The Staccato XL, with its crisp trigger and sleek lines, is a marvel of engineering—a race gun that promises precision and prestige. But as I admired it, a

The Cheeky Art of Saying Nope

Mic Drops, Misfiled Forms, and the Communal Dance of Refusal Refusal isn’t always a megaphone or a middle finger. Sometimes it’s a sly wink, a sidestep, or a polite “hard pass.” The Ledger of Refusal is a scrapbook of these rebellious moments—when folks ditch the script and

Four Alloyed Aspirations

In the crucible of self, where the world’s clamor meets the quiet pulse of becoming, authenticity is not a polished gem to clutch but a molten striving, ever-shifting, ever-forged. It is not a mask we wear nor a flag we plant, but a path we tread with scars and

LANTERN: Prompt Guide for Being There

A Companion to LANTERN: A Peer-to-Peer Framework for Emotional Support You don’t need to be a therapist. You just need to show up with care and a little light. Why Prompts? People say “be there” like it’s obvious—but it’s not. It can feel awkward. Intimidating. Paralyzing.

LANTERN: A Way to Be There When It’s Dark

What if there were something like CPR—not for physical trauma, but for emotional unraveling? Not a certification. Not a manual. Just a way to be with someone when they’re struggling. A way to notice. A way to care. A way to stay human, even when things get hard.

Introducing PDW: Personal Defense Writing

There’s a kind of writing that isn’t just for reflection or expression—it’s for survival. Not survival in the sensationalist, bunker-stockpiling sense, but in the everyday moments where presence, clarity, and community hold the line against despair, disconnection, or danger. That’s the spirit behind PDW: Personal

Scarred Hands, Lived Realities

Gun Culture Between Critique and Belonging Introduction: Between Two Camps I have a P365 in an AIWB holster and a Hi-Point anecdote in my ledger. I’ve trained with people who wear chest rigs to the range and others who keep a revolver in the sock drawer. I’ve listened

Of Violence and Survival: A Re-examination

Myths, Culture, and Moral Complexities Introduction Narratives surrounding violence, resistance, and survival often blend myth, cultural distortion, and political rhetoric, obscuring the stark realities of these phenomena. Popular media glorifies lethal tools, historical myths romanticize rebellion, and political language manipulates perceptions of self-defense. This essay critically examines these dynamics, drawing

Holding Space: With Clear Eyes, Scarred Hands

Choosing Survival Without Permission The world does not ask your consent before breaking itself. Violence is not an anomaly, and it is not polite. It comes in tides and sharp angles, sometimes slowly with warning, sometimes fast without mercy. There may be days when you will be asked to stand

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